I’m starting to realise that photographs are physical items that need to exist in the real world. I’ve been working as though the scan was the finished product for at least eight years, and that’s affected everything. Scans are like ghosts.

Also, it bothers me that I’m reliant on other people to process my films and create those scans. This disconnects me. And when things go wrong, I’m faced with the fact that it was someone else’s responsibility not to screw up, but it’s my problem now that they have. Again, a disconnect.

I booked myself onto a darkroom course. It starts in September.